They Call me "Mommy"

SO like it's been forever and ever since my last post.. yes I know this.(A special thanks to my brother James for helping me open it back up.lol. I'm a real dumb dumb sometimes.) But I feel as if I have things to say now. I have been soul searching and thinking about a lot of stuff the past few months. No one except for Luis and the Lord know what I have been praying about and going thru and I guess it's been such a change because even Luis is shocked about the changes I have made. Not trying to brag or anything of that sort. But this is important to me and I wish to lay it all out there.

I have always had a problem with forgiveness. I readily admit this. I hold a grudge. I stay bitter and angry at people for things they have done to me. I know this is wrong. I have prayed about it and cried to My God many many times.. It's hard. It sucks. And I hate it. I hate being mad at people. I hate holding things in and crying into my pillow at night because I long to tell people how I really feel but cannot. I never want to offend. I never want to upset people. I don't stick up for myself when people talk crap to and about me. This is wrong. This I know for the Bible tell me so. I will no longer be a bystander and let people walk all over me. I will no longer let people hurt me. They can try but I will not let it get under my skin. I will no longer hold a grudge about something that was not my fault and that I can do nothing about.
I love my life just how it is.. There is no need for childish drama, irresponsible friends or people, or people that do nothing but call to harass or hurt me..
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If I live to be a hundred
And never see the seven wonders
That'll be alright
If I don't make it to the big leagues
If I never win a Grammy
I'm gonna be just fine
Cause I know exactly who I am

I am Rosemary's granddaughter
The spitting image of my father
And when the day is done my momma's still my biggest fan
Sometimes I'm clueless and I'm clumsy
But I've got friends that love me
And they know just where I stand
It's all a part of me
And that's who I am

So when I make a big mistake
And when I fall flat on my face
I know I'll be alright
Should my tender heart be broken
I will cry those teardrops knowing
I will be just fine
Cause nothing changes who I am

I am Rosemary's granddaughter
The spitting image of my father
And when the day is done my momma's still my biggest fan
Sometimes I'm clueless and I'm clumsy
But I've got friends that love me
And they know just where I stand
It's all a part of me
And that's who I am

I'm a saint and I'm a sinner
I'm a loser; I'm a winner
I am steady and unstable
I'm young, but I am able

I am Rosemary's granddaughter
The spitting image of my father
And when the day is done my momma's still my biggest fan
Sometimes I'm clueless and I'm clumsy
But I've got friends that love me
And they know where I stand
It's all a part of me
And that's who I am

I am Rosemary's granddaughter
The spitting image of my father
And when the day is done my momma's still my biggest fan
Sometimes I'm clueless and I'm clumsy
But I've got friends that love me
And they know where I stand
It's all a part of me
And that's who I am
That's who I am
by Jessica Andrews.