yes so... just thinking about class tonight my feet hurt..LOL..( country western dancing)There are way too many line dances that are way different..GRRR..
oh well.. I WILL do this. I'm not too old to learn new tricks..haha
I think I'm losing weight.. my pants fit better.. not sure.. but I am not getting on any scale for a long time..LOL
Beach this weekend!!!!!
ima get BURNT..ehehehehe
Things Have been going good.
CharlieRose loves her school. I got a ride for her for a few weeks and then we will see whats up.
I have drinking coffee.. Like way too much.. FB is such a peer pressure..LOL
I have a feeling me and Gavi are gonna bond a lot more then we already have with CharlieRose being gone allll day.
Luis and the kids birthdays are all about to be upon us...ohh boy.. here we go again.LOL. Luis is be 37, CharlieRose 6, and Gavi 3.. man..time flies.
I've had baby fever the past week. Its horrible.. Luis says to shut up I have a dog. ok yeah I know that.. GRRR... Does anyone wanna lemme borrow their baby?? for reals?
hahahahaha
anyways.
Daddy is working 12s.. I miss him.. but its all good.. Me and a buncha people are going to the beach Saturday.. It feels SOOO weird being independent from him. Used to I couldn't go to Walmart alone. Now I go everywhere alone or with my kids..I guess I'm growing up after all..LOL
I've been learning to country dance. I LOVE it. sooooo much. It's really fun... plus the classes are free...tehe..
Anyways.. I'ma get off here..
Things here are going great. I love my life as mommy and wife. Luis is working overtime right now. I miss him. I'm trying to get the kids on a school schedule. Charlie will be going to school at 735 every day until 3. Which is quite a big change for her. They aren't used to getting up before 10 and Charlie only went to school for half a day last yr. Oh well it needs to be done. I'm also still wondering how I am going to get CharlieRose to school everyday.. I suppose if I need to walk 8 miles a day i will but she will just have to skip if its raining.LOL. I'm not walking in the rain with 2 kids.
We also have a lil chihuahua, we changed her name to Daphne. We used to have a dog names that and kept accidently calling her that. Her name was Sassy, but her foster parents called her Sissy. so the poor thing realy didn't know what her name was. But she actually answers to Daphne, So I think we shall keep it that way. :) she is actually very good, doesn't chew on anything, doesn't bark, is very well tempered. We just simply love her..
I've been working at ChaCha quite a bit, as much as possible. If you don't know what it is txt a question to 242242 and they will reply with an answer lol. silly I know but I don't have to leave home to make a lil cash.
Well I should get off here, don't really have much to blog about.
( I miss my mama)
SO tonight Luis and I are going to a friends birthday party. Should be a interesting night.
Tomorrow CharlieRose has her first performance for twirling. I am so proud of her. Her class will be performing at the back to school fair at Central Mall in NEderland at 1130 if anyone would like to come. :) Then later that evening at 530 she does her recital at open house at her studio. They will be given awards, cupcakes and the such.
Then Sunday we are going to Smith Lake, Have never been there but plenty of people say it's nice we we shall see. I will be making a bowl of chicken salad and we are taking our volleyball bet.. :)
Hope everyone has a wonderful and safe weekend.
So I've got a job, I am a Cha Cha guide. Its where people txt in questions and I find the answers for them. It's pretty cool, fun, and super easy.
Been cleaning and rearranging the house. Been getting things ready for Charlie's back to school days.. A few people have given me clothes which is good so maybe we won't have to spend so much money on that..LOL..
I've really been wanting a puppy, I want a chihuahua like sooooooo bad.. Maybe one day someone will accidentally drop one off at my house..
so Luis and I had a fight this afternoon..it lasted for all of 15minutes. I stayed mad for about 1hour..then he started smiling at me, i frowned. Then he did the eyebrow thingy, i growled. Then he blew me kisses and i fell(in love).. Man i hate being so in love with this man. I can't ever stay mad at him even tho i try so freaking hard... Oh well he knows i love him too I guess..hehe
so sunday night we had a game night at church.. After the service we had snacks n such.. and then played volleyball..:):) i totally hit someone in the head..oopsy sorry nick lol.. But we had a fun night. Then gavi ran up to luis and took his keys out of his pocket and ran off. so the whole church was looking for his keys in the grass in the dark. Then luis found the keys in a pocket lower down on his pant leg that he didnt know he had lol...I'm thankful for my church family... Thenthat night when i went to bed my throat started hurting. Like bad.. Woke up monday and was in bed all day. I couldnt swallow for nothing. Luis got sent home cuz he didn't go in on the weekend cuz zoe was here. But he babied me all day and took care of the girls and all the meals and house. He even did a load of laundry.. I am thankful for my mexxy sexxican... Lol the Lord blessed me with a wonderful man that always does the little things to make me smile not just sometimes.. and i am so thankful for my family and friends..
so this is the first time i blogged from my phone..lets see if it works :).... Anywyas we have had a wonderful time with Zoe. I am so freaking happy that we got to spend this time with her.
Well everything went pretty good at the child support meeting. on top of child support they had started taking 200 a month out of Luis' check for insurance.. and blah blah blah..
so. They raised the child support to 113 a week from 88 and dropped the insurance thingy..AND they are moving back to texas. so YAY!. I think everyone is happy.ish. so all that being said.. ZOE is HERE!!!!!.. yay. Luis' sister went to pick her up from Freeport. so we are gonna spend the weekend with her!!
These girls are my favorite.. They understand me. Spent a whole week with me ( and no cat fights.lol). We all love each other dearly.. These are what real friends are.
Ryan and me
Me and Ashley and Tori
Me and Ashley
So tomorrow morning me and Luis are leaving bring and early (after we go dancing tonight..oooo...we gonna be tired) to go to Texas City.
It's time for drama......lame I know. But I know it's coming. yuck.
Melissa says it was a meeting for the Child support to be raised.So Luis called up there and no it's not. It's a renegotiation meeting. They said one of the parents called up there and wants to change something.
SO...alllll day I've been worried what to wear up there. ya know I am the "new" wife, step mom. and no one likes step moms.
It's sux.
On another note. Life is good..Fish sticks, french fries and mac n cheese.. mmm mm yum
Busy cleaning house for the weekend.. hopefully it doesn't rain tomorrow because we wanted to go spend the day at the beach. But if it does, oh well we will figure something out.
I am taking Gavi to the doctor around 330, my girlfriend Ryan is dropping me off. Gavi has had fever for a few days on and off, and has just not been herself. She ate 3 whole enchiladas the other night!! That's a lot of food even for me. Please pray that she will be ok and it's not anything too bad.
Thurseday Luis and I will be in Texas City. Child Support renegotiation. UGH. I hope no one says anything mean and that all issues will be resolved for the benefit of everyone.
CharlieRose is doing good in Twirling. I am so proud of her. If you don't know what that is just youtube "kids twirling" and you will find some kind of video that shows what she is doing. Not of her yet but some kid her age..haha..
I love you Lord and all the things you do for me every day.
ok so my phone is.. well... on Crack.. for reals.. I am not even touching it and it goes thru all my settings and contacts randomly. It's like the Energizer Bunny. It keeps going and going and going. :(.
sigh..
Buy my mother in law says she will pay the deductible for a new one.
so.
MAYBE I will have a new one by tonight.
MAYBE.. hoping... praying.. wishing..
on the better side It's been a wonderful few days.
God is Good, God is great..
That's my Story and I'm stinking to it.
hehe..
BUT I did not let it get to me. Well.. I did for a hot minute. But It's all better..
I know that my God, my family, friends and my Baby love me. :)
Everyone is their own person. Everyone will answer to God for what they have done. There is no reason for me to be hurt personally for anything they have done. I take it to the Lord and Luis and they fix everything.
I do have to remember..That everything happens for a reason and it's best to let go and let God have his way..
on another note.
I am hoping the hurricane doesn't hit us..
I almost failed again today.. but I caught myself and immediately stopped it..
sometimes its hard.. but I can over come with God's help and I know this.
SO like it's been forever and ever since my last post.. yes I know this.(A special thanks to my brother James for helping me open it back up.lol. I'm a real dumb dumb sometimes.) But I feel as if I have things to say now. I have been soul searching and thinking about a lot of stuff the past few months. No one except for Luis and the Lord know what I have been praying about and going thru and I guess it's been such a change because even Luis is shocked about the changes I have made. Not trying to brag or anything of that sort. But this is important to me and I wish to lay it all out there.
I have always had a problem with forgiveness. I readily admit this. I hold a grudge. I stay bitter and angry at people for things they have done to me. I know this is wrong. I have prayed about it and cried to My God many many times.. It's hard. It sucks. And I hate it. I hate being mad at people. I hate holding things in and crying into my pillow at night because I long to tell people how I really feel but cannot. I never want to offend. I never want to upset people. I don't stick up for myself when people talk crap to and about me. This is wrong. This I know for the Bible tell me so. I will no longer be a bystander and let people walk all over me. I will no longer let people hurt me. They can try but I will not let it get under my skin. I will no longer hold a grudge about something that was not my fault and that I can do nothing about.
I love my life just how it is.. There is no need for childish drama, irresponsible friends or people, or people that do nothing but call to harass or hurt me..
...
If I live to be a hundred
And never see the seven wonders
That'll be alright
If I don't make it to the big leagues
If I never win a Grammy
I'm gonna be just fine
Cause I know exactly who I am
I am Rosemary's granddaughter
The spitting image of my father
And when the day is done my momma's still my biggest fan
Sometimes I'm clueless and I'm clumsy
But I've got friends that love me
And they know just where I stand
It's all a part of me
And that's who I am
So when I make a big mistake
And when I fall flat on my face
I know I'll be alright
Should my tender heart be broken
I will cry those teardrops knowing
I will be just fine
Cause nothing changes who I am
I am Rosemary's granddaughter
The spitting image of my father
And when the day is done my momma's still my biggest fan
Sometimes I'm clueless and I'm clumsy
But I've got friends that love me
And they know just where I stand
It's all a part of me
And that's who I am
I'm a saint and I'm a sinner
I'm a loser; I'm a winner
I am steady and unstable
I'm young, but I am able
I am Rosemary's granddaughter
The spitting image of my father
And when the day is done my momma's still my biggest fan
Sometimes I'm clueless and I'm clumsy
But I've got friends that love me
And they know where I stand
It's all a part of me
And that's who I am
I am Rosemary's granddaughter
The spitting image of my father
And when the day is done my momma's still my biggest fan
Sometimes I'm clueless and I'm clumsy
But I've got friends that love me
And they know where I stand
It's all a part of me
And that's who I am
That's who I am
by Jessica Andrews.
Well Luis finally got the over time they have been promising him for like FOREVER and EVER..goodness me!.. We are very thankful that he did.. Now we can pay back the loan we took out to get the new house.. WOOT..!...I miss him dreadfully tho..My day is quite weird without him being here till late at night.
Gavi is doing very good potty training. Its been 3 days in panties. No accidents.. diaper only at bed time and naptime.. I am still telling her to go potty, she hasn't quite gone to the bathroom all on her own yet.. but we are working on it. Mommy is so proud..
Leann and the baby moved out. I am sad. but she has to do what her mom says as she is still 17.. But they still come by every couple days so its all good..
WE are still having problems at church.. The pastor, and 2 other actually came by one night and talked to me and Luis about some stuff.. We explained everything and told him everything. He understands. There is one person that we got really close to that has gone thru the church and spread rumors and gossip about us. Not just about us. Many people have complained about her. She was my best friend for 2 years. then she became best friends with another family in the church and told them everything and anything about us that she had no business telling.. then when they dissed her she tried coming back to us and I was having no part of it. I was nice to her. my kids adore her.. but she when the other family took her back she once again dissed me for them.. Its like she was playing cat and mouse.. Then when she came over with the pastor she blamed it on her stupidity and she doesn't know when she should keep her mouth shut and not to. I told her that was a lovely excuse.. She has caused strife between us and other families. but saying outright lies... She pretends to be holy but yet her kids constantly rat her out..I'm tired of people like this. They should be disciplined. See... The people who are wrongly judged are excluded from churches and the ones who no one wants to cross who SHOULD be excluded are let free to do as they please.. NOT COOL.. Im done with it..and I'm tired of it..
On a much other lovely note. I'm excited about spending Thanksgiving with Luis' dad and brothers. ITs been over 20 yrs since Luis has spent a holiday with his dad. He says I'm his good luck charm cuz he never came around until the day we met.. WOOT.. I rock..lol.lol.So I will be around a bunch of Mexicans for turkey day.. YES!!!..just my cup of tea...lol..oh yeah. and there is one other white girl.. Luis sister in law.. so we will have fun together.. I just know it.
well..
I must get CharlieRose off to school..
Wow.. I really don't know what to say right now. I have found out some things about some people that I love dearly. not today. but some time ago. I just don't understand. you do realize it's a small world. I would have found out eventually. Even though you tried to hide it from me..I have been accused of many many things. some true. some not. No one bothered to ask me my side of the story. but yet you have done and are still doing the same if not worse of what you judged me for. not cool. quite hypocritical if I say so myself. I have come to realize that the more better and holier that you make yourself out to be the harder you fall... The Lord almighty wants us to be the best we can be for HIM. not for anyone else. There is no show that we should put on. We should not strive to please our family, our parents, the world, our neighbors, our spouse but the LORD. if HE is happy with us then we are living in the right. We should do what we beleive the Lord wants us to behave and act. not how someone else tells us they think the Bible tells us to act.. AND it should not matter what everyone else wants of us. I do not understand. I've tried to hide the real me to make many people happy.. I refuse to any longer. I am me. and for that I refuse to apologize...
From now on. I will post what I want to post. I will not be careful of what I post so that I hurt no ones feeling. I will write what I want. it is my blog. if you do not want to read or look then don't. your choice. but it is my choice to blog about what I choose to. This is not said in anger or bitterness.. nothing of the sort is going on. I think It is hightime that you see the REAL me.. I will post what pics I feel like showing to the world.. I will not hide anymore. if you don't like it.. then go do the dishes, because I'm not doing them for you.
ok sorry its been so long since the last post..
life happens..lol..
Leann has left to go help a friend for a few weeks.. so that means more tim eon the computer but less time actually talking to another human being.. I actually liked her being around. she is fun. she likes the same things I like and its really fun having another girl here..
We have been on the house hunt but the houses are always in the wrong school district.. We really don't want CR to go to PA..so we will just have to wait and see what happens..our lease here is up on the 31frst so I am sure God will find us something by then we just have to be patient.....
Luis and I have been talking about switching churches. We still have not decided. But its a topic we go back to quite often.. UGH.. is all I am saying about that..lol..
Life here is pretty much the same. That's for sure. I am actually learning more things and spending more time in the word lately. When I find things in the WORD that I see that I am doing wrong, I change.. not because someone else has told me to. but because I have seen it for myself and the LORD has convicted me all HIMself. I like this new church I visit on Wednesday nights.. but its not Baptist. so I know we will never join. but its nice to hear someone preach from the KJV for once.. Someone that preaches like my brother. I guess I just got used to him and no other preacher will ever compare, although Pastor Paul Ryan did come pretty dang close..lol..
I miss Freeport..
ALOT.
but I still don't know if we could handle moving back.
I'm just all confused right now.. It's really hard waiting and watching. It's really hard waiting for God to show you what HE wants and not what WE want....blah..
Wow.
It's been quite a while since I've posted..
There's been so much going on the last month. Then again so little. I don't really feel like posting half the time, and when I do I don't get a turn at the computer.
my mom in law and her son have been here for exactly a month. We will not go into that story AT ALL.. Also Brayden and his mom Leann have been staying here.. They really don't bother us too much. But Brayden bothers Charlie. he doesn't sleep all night so when he wakes up in the middle of the night crying Charlie gets mad. " Mommy, can you get that baby out of my room"..LOL..It's kinda funny but at the same time I feel bad for her. Gavi slept all night by the time I put her in her room..
Blah.
The girls party is Saturday at 2 pm at the church. I hope they have fun and get lotsa gifts..hehe.. I think we are just gonna make chips and dip and have a cake..and play a few games for the kiddos..I've been lazy and haven't done much for it yet..LOL..
But I got my friend Ashley to make the cake.WOOt.lol.
CharlieRose got a nintendo DS and we haven't got Gavi anything just yet. She won't notice yet..heehee..
well I must run and do stuff.. no one is in my house today.WOOT..
